HIDING/ISOLATE

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Wazzup guys,

Just wanna share a part of my LITTLE story.


When I'm here in Sarawak, It is a kind of mission that is floating. Like a boat that is floating on the sea. Means, I have no solid reason.

How come I left West Malaysia and live here?? It's might be only a temporary decision.

I need a place for me to isolate my self. I'm not hiding  myself.

Eventually, i will face those people. Those people that I only pray for them. It's sort of too late at this moment. But that is only the best way that i can do.

I quit disappointed with my self, I'm not afford to make a decision yet..


But do not judge me...

My parents were divorced.

I don't even know who is my father. I'm a girl that was abandoned by her father.

Then, my journey became so complicated.

Give me time. Give me space.

I'm fragile my dear.

FRESH GRADUATE

Assalamualaikum readers..

Hye...

Alhamdulillah, last July I completely finished my study here in UNIMAS. Unexpectedly, I've got dean list for my last sem ( NAMPAK SGT B4 THIS XDPT DEAN LIST).  For an average student like me, grad with second upper class for an Engineering course is cool ( First class degree is CGPA bout 3.7).


So what is my next step? What is my next move? How/Where/When should i create my PATH in this life?

Currently, im working as RA at my faculty..but im still undecided. HUHU.

Should i proceed with Master or Work??

What do you wanna be in this life?? Lecturer or Engineer??

What kind of life do you want??


For me, when im making any decision, i will consider my aim and my priority. This life is NEVER be easy like 1, 2, 3... NEVER EVER..TRUST ME. Your decision today will effect your entire life.

Sometimes, I feel so awkward with CERTAIN type of people. This type of people DEFINE success in life, when we have lots of money, great carrier or being SOMEONE.

For me, searching the meaning of your life is much more important that full fill for your ambition.

Or now im being AWKWARD..Hehe

Let say, when im 50 years old ( 36 years from now)

I've became an engineer, i have lots of money, cars, big house..Is that type of life that i want??

NO..100% NO..

MONEY is not my first priority. Money is important but there are others thing that have bigger value than money.

That is why i wanna be lecturer. For me, academician is cool.

ANYTHING MAKE YOU CLOSER TO ALLAH IS THE BEST

Then, should i proceed with my master?? im really confuse

My aim is to be lecturer but my priority is my MOM.

At this 24 years old it is your time to give 'berbakti' to your parents not ask for their money anymore. Im luckier than my other frens because if i continue with my master my fee is insyaallah free and get an allowance 1K or 1.6 K per month.

TO BE CONT..( MALAS PLAK AKU NAK TULIS)